The Delayed Update...

Well I found out I am not very good at keeping my word when it comes to writing religiously on my blog. But alas I am here and ready to talk about my "updates" of all the other stuff I said in my previous blog.

Okay where do I start? Um.....oh yeah my group. My group went well. I had 10 girls show up and they were all happy and eagerly volunteered to come back for the next meeting. We just established what we thought domestic violence was instead of the dictionary version so we could use the definition in our lessons. I am very excited for the coming months and my nerves are totally over now. Yay!

But in one area my nerves are on overdrive. I asked this guy out for some coffee/energy drinks and I was shaking and my volume was really quiet then really loud and shaking alot. But I asked and he said he would think about it. Although he said the same thing freshman year...and that didn't turn out so good...great.

Hmmm, oh! The kidneys. I took some blood tests and I did a urine test and had a physical. The results will come back from the labs in about 4 days and he found out I need to excersize my lower back more and gave me some pain killers for the old spine. Lol. I should be fine but we don't know yet about the bloos work which could reveal more....more things I could probably live without.

Not much else. I'm not gonna say that I'll write again tomorrow because I probably won't...

Nerves...pukey nerves.

You know how sometimes you get that feeling in your stomach like at any moment you're going to throw up your insides? Yeah I have that feeling right now. I have two things that are making me feel this way. One is that I have my first domestic violence awareness group meeting and I feel prepared for that and I never have a problem speaking in front of large groups. I also am nervous primarily because I am going to ask someone out...girls don't normally have to do that. So what am I doing!!!!! Anyways I'm bervous about that. Its not a big deal its just coffee and a talking probably is what I want to have happen but you never know. We'll see. I will update mor eon the situation during 6th period. After all the drama of the day has passed.

-Nervous Kate

Weekend Happenings

Well...the weekend was eventful. I worked for 5 longs hours on saturday and then from there went home and slept and then from there I went to my church and babysat 9 kids for 3 hours with my friend David. I was excited only for the fact that SOnna (my four year old foster child that I have been working with) was going to be there. Everything was going as planned until the movie mentioned it was going to kill a baby pig (Charolette's Web) and then Sonna went bug nuts and freaked, she doesn't react well to violence because of her previous home before foster care.

Then sunday I went to church and caused an uproar within my sunday school class. They asked where my religious stand poitn was and I said..."well right now I don't think I have one. I am the kind of person that likes to put logic beind everything and with matters like this you just simply can't do that. I don't know if there is a god because I can't prove it. Since the time I was old enough to speak and comprehend I was given to drastic extremes; heaven or hell. If you don't believe in heaven then obviously the negative extreme is your result, you go to hell. In situations like this there is only one right answer. SO it makes you want to believe for the sole purpose of not burning in a firey pit of hell, not because of christ dying on a cross." I expressed this to my class and in front of my mentor at church and that didn't go over so well. I stated that I wasn't going to lie to my friends and peers in the room that I don't like being fake, so I flat out said that I was agnostic.

After the whole church ordeal my dad and I went into Salem to just browse around and check stores and stuff. I bought a sweater (which is freaking itchy but cute) and we had this long talk about alcohol and he wanted to know if I was drinking and if I was he wouldn't be mad he would just tell me his concerns he said he expected me to have tried it by now and if not then I would probably expirience it at some point before college.

Which brings me to the last part of my weekend my homecoming blunder. I wanted to go to homecoming with my friend Josh but he doesn't know if he's gonna go, and he said if he did go he would totally want to go with me. SO why not go?!!?!? If you know your gonna have a date then just freaking go....jerks. ANyways whatever I'm waiting right now for the verdict. I hate it. But its okay. Josh is a nice guy, he can be a little wench sometimes, but he's not a mean jerkface that would hurt my feelings on purpose and if he does I'll just punch him. Whateva.

Okay so now I'm at school typing up this and lesson pplans for my class. I am teaching my first class tomorrow and on wednesday I have my blood tests and urine samples thing and then I will update the blog with all the happens.

So to be continued:
1.) Homecoming date?
2.) Kidneys and what the heck is going on with them.
3.) My first group and the overall success or failure.
4.) Life...and if I've failed it yet.

Peace.

Kidneys...and I ain't talk'in about beans.

So the other day I was planning on continuing with the normal after school routine. I get my books out of my locker, walk to Leah's, pick her up and then walk to the wolf building to talk about the day over a sup of coffee or just a soda. But yesterday was different. I started to get a slight head ache at the end of the day but I brushed it off. Then when I walked to the wolf building I started to get light headed and faint. So to put it lightly I wasn't feeling well. Then the lower back pain started and the small headache turned into a pounding head ache. But the worst part was that I had to work with two small children in 20 minutes. I could barely stand by the end of the "coffee discussion" I could barely stand and nausea kicked it. I once again like always, brushed it off and started to drive to work. Half way to work my boss called and said she didn't need me anymore. Which was a relief and so I drove home speedy quick took some advil and crashed. When I woke up I was still filled with severe nausea and started to throw up and the back pain got worse.

To sum up this morbid terrible blog (its actually not that bad) I have been begging my mom to take me to the doctors for five months and she finally agreed after last night's situation to schedule me some blood tests and urine sample tests and a physical. So, on thursday I will be evaluated and hopefully the problem will be solved. Right now we are looking at kidney failure or infection, and almost positive anemia.

I will keep you all posted. (and by you all I probably just mean Kathryn and Carson the one's I gave my blog address to. Haha.) I have been taking pain medication and wearing comfy sweatshirts. Hopefully it will all be resolved soon.

Oh and when I was walking down the hall way I got kidney punched by a random kid, it was so painful I yelped. Haha.

Drama Mama Fo Fama Me Mi Mo Mama DRAMA!

I know I said I would write more but life happens and it happens fast and I had things I ahd to do that took presidence over writing in my stupid blog. (Which I actually don't think is stupid I enjoy it.)

So the Anne Frank cast list was posted this weekend before noon on saturday right on the window on the front doors of our beloved high school. I was at a speech workshop with my group of freshman and so I enlisted my best buddies Leah and Hallie to check the list for me. I went through the first part of the day relatively well until lunch...when "the call" came in from Leah. I didn't get a part. Wait what? I didn't get a part. EXCUSE ME! CAN YOU SPEAK UP!?!? I didn't get a part. I am a fur year senior who has devoted a good peice of her time and life to the theater department. The director knew I wanted this, that I wanted this more than anything. But he cast a junior over me.

I also discussed with my senior theater friends about the decision and even they thought the casting was wrong. I was upset to say the least. I am upset and so with this upsetness ( a new word invented by me) I decided to talk to the source of the problem, Mr. O.

Here's the conversation in a readers digest version:
Kaitlin- "I have never been more disappointed in my entire life"
Mr. O- "You have the right to be dissapointed, I am glad you are venting on me it shows that you care."
Kaitlin- "You don't understand I don't care anymore. You lead kids on and then lie to them about the characters they might have a chance at getting you've done it to me all four years. I don't wanna have to do that anymore."
Mr. O- "You didn't do your best, to tell you the truth you didn't do very well at all."
Kaitlin- " Mr. O do you think it's fair to give two students scripts before the try-outs are even set?"
Mr. O- "I didn't. They came and asked me for the scripts. Did you come and ask me? No. You didn't that is your fault."
Kaitlin- "You gave them the scripts Mr. O. (It was confirmed by the two girls later that they indeed were given the scripts and did not ask for them. Mr. O had told them to "know the characters) Mr. O I can sit here and argue with you all day but I will never be right. You always turn it so you win. But Mr. O you didn't win. Thank you for hearing me out"
Mr. O- "You did the right thing coming to talk to me. I'm sorry I couldn't help you."

So there you go folks. The situation in its prime. I am so mad! I am happy for my friends that got parts but I am not ecstatic at the same time. I celebrate with them in their triumph but I wallow in the disappointment with my fellow "cast offs"

Then comes the question, "Will she try out for the one acts?" I don't know guys. I don't know.

The First Of MANY....and many, and many and many....Blogs.

I have decided it would be better for me to have a place that anyone who is anybody can reach me at. Not so much reach me but read about my life and what is going on at that very moment. Like right now for instance I am sitting Mrs. Fisher classroom working on my new awareness group. But it popped into my head that I used to have a blog, a cool blog. One that people would ask me about and want me to write more and more. One thing you'll notice when reading my blogs is that I rarely stay on topic and that I bounce around and around talking about whatever I feel like. Which changes every few minutes. I also hate grammar and refuse to use it when writing. Speaking and using grammar and pronunciation and what not is another story because I like to look adn sound like I know what I'm talking about when half the time I don't. But I do like to ask lots of questions. If I don't know about something then I want to know about it. Which is probably why I have thrived in school. I don't feel like talking anymore. But check ou my profile theres some good stuff in there. More will be posted tomorrow my returning fans, more tomorrow.